i think about that often..
2 be “normal”..
whatever that shit is..
what would i be?..
..
clearly not as awesome as i am now…
.thats like i wonder if my father stayed would i be some whorebag floosie bitch or something..
if my twin hadn’t miscarried would it be boy..
girl..
identical..
the alternate universes possibilities are endless..
i know alternate me is a Harvard graduate ‘nd an accountant..
book smart only..
no gumption ..
not a risk taker..
drug ‘nd alcohol free..
married..
skinny..
o ‘nd heres the kicker..
..
..
wait for it..
..
..
STRAiGHT!..
oooo nooooooooooooo!

SOMETiMES i COMPARE MY MOTiON PiCTURE LiFE 2 OTHER PEOPLES HiGHLiGHT REELS..

LAYiNG UNDER MY COVERS RUBBiNG MY NiPPLE RiNGS..
MEDiTATiNG..

ALTHOUGH iTS OVER NOW iM HOPiNG THAT WE CAN GROW FROM THiS..
W/ LUCK..
CAUSE i HONESTLY CANT BE THAT AT SOME1 ‘ND NOT DUMP ON THEiR ASS..
i DONT EVER WANNA HURT HER FEELiNGS ..
NOT EVER..
iT’LL NEVER END WELL..

i CANT SEE PAST THE HAiR CRACK ‘ND MANES FROM OVER SEAS..

#TEAMLiGHTSKiN VS #TEAMDARKSKiN DATES AS FAR BACK AS SLAVERY DAYS..
WHEN SLAVES BEARiNG THEiR CHiLDREN ON THEiR BACK WHiLE iN THE FEiLDS THOUGHT HOUSE SLAVES HAD iT BETTER..
BUT iN REALiTY A FEiLD SLAVE HAD 2 BE FUCKED 2 MAKE THOSE “HOUSE NiGGERS” THAT WERE BROUGHT iN2 WHiTE HOMES..
TO WATCH AFTER WHiTE CHiLDREN..
SLEEPiNG ON FLOORS BETWEEN TENDiNG TO THE MiSTRESS..
‘ND MOST iMPORTANTLY BEiNG BENT OVER THE DiNNER TABLE SO MASSA CAN HELP HiMSELF TO MY GOODiES..
i DONT SEE HOW SEXUAL ABUSE COULD EVER BE MORE TOLERABLE THAN PHYSiCAL ABUSE..

CLASSiCALLY i DONT NEED FAT SHAMERS..
i FAT SHAME MYSELF..
HENCE THE NAME “FATTiE”..
SO YOU NEED A NEW KNACK WHEN COMING THIS WAY..

ITS ALWAYS AMAZING TO SEE HOW FAST PEOPLE TURN ON ME..
..
DON’T THINK FOR A SECOND BECAUSE I LOVE YOU AND CONSOLE YOU EVERY CHANCE I CAN [DUE TO OUR PHYSICAL DISTANCE] THAT I WONT TELL YOU WHAT YOU NEED TO HEAR-VS- WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR..
ALTHOUGH MY LOVE FOR YOU IS TRUE..
I WILL ALWAYS BE TRUEST TO MY SELF 1ST..
‘ND I CANT FAKE THE FUNK..

lionofbedstuy:

Kendrick Lamar - Poetic Justice ft. Drake

I hope the fantastic cinematography, or the leading lady’s beauty, or Drake’s (persistent) awkwardness doesn’t take away the message of this song. 

Lives and love such a this continue to be cut short. Violence is still a way of life, between gangs, among the youth, within impoverished communities and for our people. People are being murdered everyday over the most senseless issues.

Art reflects reality.

MEMORiES OF MY PAST..
HAUNT ME ON DRUNKEN NiGHTS LiKE THESE..
WiSHiNG DEATH ON THiEVES STEALiNG YOU iN THE NiGHT..
YOUR DEPARTURE HAS FORMED A HOLE iN MY SOUL..
GAPiNG SO WiDE THAT THE AVERAGE PERSON CAN SEE SUNSHiNE ON THE OTHER SiDE..